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Saturday, July 17, 2004

TRANSFERRING... TRANSFERRING...
 
if u r wondering wat i m tranferring, i m tranferring this blog to a newer one with more idiot-proof functions for IT idiots like me... this is my new link:
 
http://kelvintanks.blogspot.com
 
alternatively, u can be transferred to my new blog on the side bar...
of cos, those faithful to my blog will know that i m very very very very very slow at changing things on my blog, so pls be patient... plus i m now working in JB on weekdays with no internet access, i can't do up this new blog at once... :)


Tuesday, July 06, 2004

MATTHEW 5:14-16

"You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven." (Matthew 5:14-16)

i began to appreciate this verse more as i stayed in JB for the last week..
i guess, being in a Muslim country, with very few Chinese around, i am most probably the only Christian in the whole factory.. there are plenty of Malays & tonnes of Nepalese workers.. but they could think of is sex, prostitutes, drinking, smoking & motor bike racing. even the boss was said to be involved in adultery or something; some rumours were spread among the staff as a senior staff resigned with immediate effect..

it is quite sad in a country where they claim to be worshippers of the true God, such degree of sin exist. seems like Corinth in a modern text... sigh... it is really tough to live in that world but not of that world, because i am like entirely soaked in sin, with the sustenance of the Lord as my only lifeline, with God as my refuge & strength in such place...

sometimes i wonder to myself: why did i give myself such trouble? i could have chosen any other S'pore company instead of this. why did i stupidly go, cos i just started my relationship with Grace & IA itself is a 2nd thing i need to re-adjust my life to. now i have adjust to a new country & also stand up against the sin there. as i reflect upon it, i realised that it is not my will but God's will be done. these people need the Lord. if i din go, then these people will miss half a year without any light in that place. not as if i dun go then it's the end of story for them; the Lord will always send another brother-in-Christ to go. but as i sought the Lord for the reason why i should be there, & discussing this issue with Grace, we realised that my job there is not exactly the IA itself, but to live a life worthy of the Lord & to pray for these people, to be "the light on a hill that cannot be hidden" for the people there. i have always said my IA to JB is like a 6-mth mission trip, but back then, i din realised what it would really mean. now i stand by what i said before, only with a better understanding what this mission is about.

Brothers & Sisters in Christ, if you are reading this entry, will you also pray with me the following points?
PRAY:
1. that the Lord will convict these people of their sin;
2. that He will send forth more labourers to this pre-sown land;
3. that God will soften the hearts of my colleagues, be it Malays, Nepaleses or Chinese, so that they will be receptive to Him;
For me,
4. that the Lord will grant me strength to stand up against the sin that surrounds the land;
5. that i will walk faithful in His footsteps & lead a godly life for all to see & praise our Father in heaven;
6. that i will have the boldness & opportunities to share Christ with them.

thanks... :)

Wednesday, June 23, 2004

SIANZZZ...

i have been quite sian at work these few days, reading & preparing a proposal for purchasing of equipments. my life now has become very routine. *yucks*

6.30am wake up wash up
7.20am leave house
8.20am reach office, start work (alternating with nuahing & surfing net)
11.30am longing for lunch break
12.30pm FINALLY lunch break
1.30pm end of lunch break, back to the same program as 8.20am
5.30pm waiting for time to pass
6pm FREEDOM!!!
7pm dinner, reach home
8pm TV, internet...again
11.30pm zZzZzZ...

& the routine starts all over again.. sigh..

reading of scriptures these days r consistant, but hardly much input... can't seem to remember wat i had just read, dun even need to think of meditation...

Father, help me to find joy in Your word, help me understand & meditate on Your word day & night, just as Ps 1 says... increase my love for You & Your word, so that thru these i may be more like Jesus, in whose name i pray. amen

p.s. by the way, it's going to be lunch in 10min time... ;P

Friday, June 18, 2004

DADDY, I DUN WANNA GO TO WORK...

i remember when i was much younger, it's always: mummy, i dun wanna go to school...
now, it's: Daddy (in heaven), i dun wanna go to work...

only 1 week of IA, i m already quite sian of working... wake up early in the morning, wash up & go work... reach office at 8.30am (i nvr reach NUS earlier than 10am b4...) & work till 6pm.
so disgustingly no life... well, from this 1 week, it seems quite certain that office desk job is not my cup of tea; it's sooooo boring, plus gotta see boss' face everyday. i m just waiting to go JB to try out industrial life... & after that i can gauge for myself wat kind of life i hope to lead after grad... of cos, my brothers who r already working (e.g. choopoot, raymond, joshua) would say tt my thots r too ideal... :)

nonetheless, i give thanks for the time i have now in office.. supervisor on 3 weeks leave, i m using her comp to check some stuff for the company, tt's why i can type this blog at such odd hours.. :p
also, it's still quite relaxed, such tt i can have time to read the scriptures every morning when i reach office...
"Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." (1 Thessalonians 5:18)

Monday, June 14, 2004

JB? KIV...

ok... the NTU student in my IA company is still there, so there is no space for me over at JB side... so KIV... meanwhile, i'll learn to be humble & be office boy for 2 weeks back in S'pore office... thankfully to God, cos this gives me a bit more time to adapt to working life instead of throwing myself into work in a foreign land immediately...

Our God is a God of divine appointments...
just wanna share a bit here abt something tt took place today... well, i went over to JB with a supervisor to have a look at the factory which i'll be working in... on the way there, we were talking abt school, abt holidays.. then she asked if S'pore students work in the hols, so i told her some do, but i dun bcos i m busy with ministry stuff... den i realised she (being a Chinese national, S'pore PR) may not know the gospel, so i explained tt i m a Christian, we began to talk abt religions etc... tho i din get the chance to share the full gospel, i came to know tt she is not totally resistant to Christianity... do pray with me for her salvation, as the Lord permitted me to stay in S'pore for another 2 weeks, pray also tt God will give me more opportunities to share the full gospel with her & invite her to church to hear the salvation message...

Saturday, June 12, 2004

HOW COME YOU LOVE ME SO MUCH?

Grace asked me this same question the other day (I am sharing this with her permission, of course…), I replied, “I ask the same question too sometimes…” & both of us thought we don’t really deserve each other’s love & that we have not done enough for or love the other party enough…

Upon reflection, I was thinking of one thing:
Father-in-heaven, how come You love me so much?

“For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.” (John 3:16)

Grace & I are just human… our love for each other are certainly not agape (sacrificial love), not the same level of love as Jesus had for the world. Yet we felt that we don’t deserve each other’s love… in the same manner, how do we deserve Jesus’ agape love, which is much purer, much deeper than human love? I have done nothing to deserve Jesus’ agape love; on the contrary, I have done everything that deserves the exact opposite of His love. “But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” (Romans 5:8) I don’t understand the Father’s love, why He would love such lousy creatures like us; all I know is that He really loves you & me…


Grace: not my girlfriend’s name, but it’s a favour rendered by one who need not do so; Jesus Christ.

It is very typical of us human, to think that we need to do something in exchange for some other things… in a certain manner, yes… but in this case, there is nothing we can do to credit someone’s love, much less to credit God’s love. Nothing we can do can make Him love us more, & nothing we have done, will make Him close the door. Because of His great love, He gave His only Son, & everything was done so you would come. & this is the whole idea of the grace of God.


‘So when they had eaten breakfast, Jesus said to Simon Peter, “Simon, son of Jonah, do you love Me more than these?”
He said to Him, “Yes, Lord; You know that I love You.”
He said to him, “Feed My lambs.” ’ (John 21:15)

I have shared this passage many times. The Greek words used for “love” by Jesus & by Peter are different. Jesus used “agape” while Peter used “phileo”. We often think that we haven’t loved God enough, how can He love us that much. However, as human, we must understand that we are unable to agape. Even the Apostle Peter knew that he could only phileo his Lord. God’s love for us is not based on how much we love Him. He simply loved us so. “We love Him because He first loved us.” (1 John 4:19)

Father-in-heaven, how come You love me so much? I don’t understand Your love, Father, but thank You for loving me so much. Help me to love You, just as You have loved me. amen.

Friday, June 11, 2004

BACK FROM KL GOING TO JB...

6-star hotel: Palace of the Golden Horses
turned out to be the Palace of the Wooden Donkeys...

service: 3 stars
food: 3.5 stars
cleaniness: 3 stars
journey to KL: 1 star
journey home: 5 STARS...

sigh... i dun wanna complain tt much so i shall leave as tt... tho i had 2 night of breathing difficulties, thanks to dusty carpeted floors which never seemed to be vacuumed...

all in all, it was a good time to fellowship with brothers & sisters in Christ... & also to hear from God's word & reflect on the conditions of our souls... of cos, i will NOT share wat the Lord spoke to me on the blog, cos tt was for me & me alone... but many campers do felt the presence of the Lord thru-out the camp...

my prayer is tt as the campers return home... they (myself included) do not leave wat was spoken to them by the Lord at KL, but tt they will strive to live as they were instructed...

going to JB next week... a bit kan cheong... but looking forward to it too... sigh, wat mixed feelings...

Sunday, June 06, 2004

KL... THEN JB... M'SIA, HERE I COME

well, tmr is church camp... my 1st church camp since i returned to God 2.5 years ago... this time, we r going to KL... but to me.. it signifies the end of my hols, cos the week immediately after church camp, i'll be starting my IA... in JB... for 6 mths, only to be back for weekends...

gosh... i sure will miss the Flintstonies and VCF... miss my bed, miss arguing with my mum :p But most of all, i think i'll miss Grace the most...

seems so tragic... getting together for 2 mths, only to be separated for 6mths... ;p however, we (both Grace & i) believe tt our Father-in-heaven has a great plan & lesson for us to learn during this period.. do pray for us tt we will be faithful to God & to be quiet to listen to God for His plan for us in these 6 mths...

on the other hand, it'll be a good experience now as a student to work overseas to get a feeling of wat it's like to be away from those i love the most, & also a feeling of the working world...

fear.
dunno wat lies ahead, but my Father knows, & surely He is in control & He is there before me... need to learn to trust Him fully... just as today's sermon reminded us to surrender fully to God, just as our Lord Jesus did in the Garden of Gethsemane... tt's my prayer to the Lord, & my prayer request to my brothers & sisters in Christ who read my blog...

p.s. will try to update my blog at least once a week...

Tuesday, June 01, 2004

SEARCHING...

no, i m not searching for anything... hmmm... myb i m: for solution to my comp problem... *sigh*

last few days, i forgot wat i was trying to rectify, i opened a search page... den dunno y, the next day onwards, my comp suddenly popped out a search bar permanent in my comp... so disgusting...
it slowed my comp a lot, & now my comp functions seems a bit retarded...

so now i guess i m searching for comp experts (namely my brothers-in-Christ: Galv & Edmond) to help me with my comp... perhaps i need to format my comp... but still I NEED HELP!!!

Saturday, May 29, 2004

WHERE WILL YOU BE?

After a very filling buffet of tim sum at Hotel Miramar with the rest of the Sci CFers, Grace & I decided to catch the movie “The Day After Tomorrow”… I shall not reveal the plot of the show in case you wanna watch it… ;p But I really like the phrase in the trailer: “Where will you be?”

It really brought me to think of what would happened to us if all of a sudden, a great calamity falls upon the whole world… it may not be like the show where there are hailstones falling from the sky or 3 gigantic hurricanes over the surface of the earth, but it can be in the form of other disasters where billions* of lives can be lost within a matter of days.

*note: we can only afford to lose up to 6 billion lives because there are currently just above 6 billion people in earth… anymore than that, mankind is extinct!!!

& in times like these, you can see people begin to scatter, each following what he/she thinks is right, even in the event where there is a clear instruction from above, telling them how they can be saved.

To me, I think the greatest calamity that will ever falls on mankind has already begun… In fact, it is coming to its terminal stage soon, just that it is so subtle, so quiet that people do not notice. When our forefather Adam ate from the tree of the knowledge of good & evil, he had sinned against the Lord God, a direct violation of the instruction given in Genesis 2:17 “but you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, for when you eat of it you will surely die.” Adam was to die. As his descendants, we too, inherited his sin & we ourselves also sin against God. As a result, all mankind die. None was spared from the mouth of death. Yet this is not the scariest part. To many people, death is a release from their suffering on earth; to some, part of a cycle; to some, nothingness. But the bible tells us in Hebrews 9:27 “…man is destined to die once, and after that to face judgment…” & in Revelations 20:12-15 “…The dead were judged according to what they had done as recorded in the books…The lake of fire is the second death. If anyone's name was not found written in the book of life, he was thrown into the lake of fire.”

But “for God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.” (John 3:16) The One Above has given us a solution, a clear instruction as to how we can be saved from this worldwide calamity. But look around us, how many heard this instruction? Of those who heard, how many listened? Of those who listened, how many obeyed?

YOU!!!

Yes! You! The one reading this entry now… have you heard of Jesus Christ, the Son of God, THE solution to salvation from this calamity? No? Go grab the nearest Christian around you now & get him/her to share the solution with you… I don’t want to see you die…

Oh… so you heard of Him. Do you believe that Jesus is indeed THE solution to this age-old problem of death? No? Gosh!!! You have better. Because what I have just said of the worldwide calamity is true & it can be full blown any moment & when that happens, it will be too late for you. You will be dead. The 2nd time. Come. Believe now. This solution is for you as well as for the world. Come.

Wonderful!!! You do believe that Jesus is the solution to death. Then look around you. So many out there have not heard of the solution, the instruction to life. “How, then, can they call on the One they have not believed in? And how can they believe in the One of whom they have not heard? And how can they hear without someone preaching to them?” (Romans 10:14) What are you waiting for? Go share the solution NOW!!!